I just got back from the theatre office (closed). This is not good. I was supposed to audition last evening, but couldn't get a ride. Anyways, I left a message on the dry erase board, asking if I can audition tomorrow, during callbacks. I have been having second thoughts about this audition. For one thing, I haven't read the play; it's one that's not that well known, written by a Canadian author. I have, however, done my online research, and I honestly don't think I'm a good for either of the two female roles. Also, I feel fat. But that's a given. Despite the doubts, I still want to audition -- my horoscope said that this week, a talent scout will be impressed with me. Ha.

So far today, I've eaten an egg salad sandwich, and fries. With mayo. And the sandwich was greasy. Not good. What was really embarrassing was that when I asked for mayo, the Asian guy at the counter laughed, "You really like mayo!" Even the obese man standing in line behind me laughed.

Oh, my life...

I keep telling myself today's the day I- but I never follow through. This has been a pattern for as long as I can remember, and it has lost me so many opportunities. I just keep letting myself down. Not anymore... Please?